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Day 12 – Keep oversleeping for the Grave.

Day 12: Journey to Life, pattern deconstruction continues. Today, I will see the pattern of desiring to sleep-in/oversleeping in the mornings a little bit more, bit long, another extra 30 mins, etc etc, and they spend the entire morning in guilt and remorse and feeling bad about me for having slept in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sleep-in in the mornings knowing very well that I have just given into an old pattern. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste 30 minutes of my life in sleeping extra, and believe that it is OK, and I will work late in the evening extra time and push back all my evening activities further late. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty for having slept in, not realizing that guilt will keep me doing the same thing over and over again. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a ‘Not a morning person’ and actually live upto constructing such a personality. Was I born not-a-morning person? 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself and limit myself as a not-a-morning-person and hence further justify me sleeping in extra time in the mornings. whereas I could get up early do a whole bunch other things. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to struggle with this point and not come to a resolution and then feel bad for doing so. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad about myself for not getting up on time. and then go into guilt and remorse. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to start my day with guilt for not having started it early. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have not made a solid decision as to when to start my day, and then just leave it hanging. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect self-discipline and just hang a lose, just go with the flow, and in that waste my time and my life. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to carry this pattern of over sleeping for years and carry guilt for years and feel bad about myself for years. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to set a standard for myself and not meet it and then go into guilt about it. Instead of going to guilt, I simply make a decision about it, and just do it. 

When and As I see myself going into the pattern of over sleeping, I direct myself to jump up as the alarm is ringing, not giving into any extra rest time. I realize that I have overslept for years, and will have ample time for oversleep in the grave, so why bother to waste my life here in sleeping. So when and as I see myself going into that decade old pattern of over sleeping, I STOP, I breathe, and I just jump out. I direct myself, I move myself. I realize that body needs rest, but 6-7 hours is ample, just lying and waiting is giving my mind conscious system a boast. 

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