Day 149 – Fear of Death causes of Fear of New Things. Breathing is key.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rush within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rush and within that get anxious when new work assignments are given to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rush and experience panic without even investigating the work-issues.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rush and experience sense of disorientation within myself, instead of breathing and bringing myself back here within the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rush to the finish line so that I can claim myself to be a winner, instead of breathing here and walking each step of the way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with a sense of rush and panic when new work items are assigned to me, within that resist myself to work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience resistance when new work items are assigned to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience anxiety, rush-ness, and resistance when new work items are assigned to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience fear of change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience fear of new things and fear of learning new things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience fear of the unknown.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear letting go of what is comfortable to me and investigating new things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear letting go of the comfortable/familiar past and embracing new things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear investigating, researching new things, instead preferring to stay within the comfort zones of the past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear trying new things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear studying new things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself and remain within the same area of study and not expand.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself within the fears I have about new things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, that fear of new things is due to attachment to memories and seeking comfort within memories.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be comfortable within my memories.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek comfort within my memories.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let memoires guide me, instead of looking at what is here with an open mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that so-called close-mindedness is due to attachment to memories.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that whatever my memories suggest is the truth and must not jump into the unknown.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear death, because it is the greatest unknown.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the unknown and therefore fear death because I see death as an unknown.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize I experience rushness, resistance, panic when I am encountering new things because of my fear of death, the fear of the unknown. within this I forgive me for fearing the unknown and fearing death. I direct myself to breathe and remain here as breath and embrace what is coming on my way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into resistance and thereby submit to the fear of the unknown and fear of death. within this I forgive me for not breathing and walking right into it. I see/realize/understand, the more I resist, the more difficult it becomes to embrace something new, therefore I see the best way to counter the fear of unknown, the fear of death is to breathe and walk right into the issues at hand, without giving into my mind’s resistances.

When and as I see myself experiencing panic, rushness, resistance towards new things, new work items, new areas of study, I stop, I breathe, I realize it is my fear of the unknown, the fear of death that is preventing me from embracing new things. Therefore I stop, I breathe, and jump right into it, and within common sense I investigate the issues at hand, instead of experience panic, rush, or resistance. I realize, I must breathe to support myself with breath by breath.

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FEARWEEK at desteni: What are you Fears?

This is fear week at desteni. That means simply list all the fears we have carried within us all along. Dont mistake mental fears for present and immediate dangers. Standing in front of a running train is not an act of fearlessness, it is pure stupidity. Likewise escaping from a running train is not an act of fear, rather an act of self-support. Don’t be stupid, use common sense in listing fears.

One by one all of humanity is living in fear. Most fears are learned during childhood years and get deeply buried within us, manifesting all through out our lives. And of course fears are not without consequences. For example, if you always fear meeting new people, by simple mathematics, it would mean you will be isolated and lonely. Because as you meet someone new you will start to fear them, and the other person sensing your fear will in fact end up doing or saying something to activate your fears. So all you have done is simply manifest your fear of others each time you meet new people. Now imagine you getting married with all that fears within you, rather difficult task to live with another with all that fears unresolved.

Just for the fun of it, try to list all of your fears, can you? Here is my list of fears:

fear of having bad breath.
fear of not having money.
fear of my wife leaving me
fear of my job is ending
fear of losing my bank accounts to hackers
fear of losing my car keys
fear of losing my house keys
fear of smelling bad
fear of having bad body order
fear of dying young
fear of unable to have great sex
fear of having a weak body
fear of not been man enough
fear of not being a rough and tough guy
fear of been fearful
fear of getting hurt
fear of seen as stupid and dumb
fear of seen as ugly
fear of seen as too dark
fear of seen as too skinny
fear of seen as too odd shape
fear of seen as lazy
fear of seen as someone with bad teeth
fear of smiling because i fear how my teeth will look
fear of failing at my job and then getting fired
fear of been alone
fear of living without sex
fear of not having a partner
fear of not having a family
fear of been homeless
fear of losing my brothers
fear of having no relatives
fear of been totally alone and moneyless
fear of been robbed
fear of losing all my money.
fear of losing all my retirement funds.
fear of facing divorce.
fear of losing my health
fear of been unloveable
fear of others getting angry at me
fear of been cheated
fear of people lying to me and cheating me
fear of asking questions
fear of counter questioning them
fear of saying NO to others
fear of losing my wife to another man
fear of been dumped
fear of been childless
fear of been alone for rest of my life
fear of dying in a freak way
fear of flying and dying in plane crash
fear of snakes
fear of big animals
fear dying from hunger
fear of dying
fear of death
fear of diseases
fear of unemployment
fear of been killed
fear of been attacked
fear of ghosts at night
fear of night darkness
fear of sleeping in a new place alone
fear of street people
fear of black people
fear of beggars
fear of sinhala people in sri lanka
fear of army and military men
fear of police
fear of burnt alive
fear of fire
fear of been disliked by so called friends
fear of my phone never ringing
fear of no emails
fear of no new messages therefore isolation
fear of loneliness
fear of isolation
fear of using public toilets at night
fear of walking alone in downtown black areas
fear of drive a car in ‘bad’ areas of town
fear of seen by poor people when i am driving around
fear of been seen as rich by poor people
fear of others getting angry at me.
fear of been scold by others
fear of been blamed
fear of my own anger expounding
fear of losing self control in anger
fear i might say something really nasty and bad and then lose my relationships
fear i may lose my family due to conflict and divorce.
fear of been judged by others
fear of what others think of me.
fear of been disowned by others
fear of been killed because apparently i am bad for others
fear of accused for things i didn’t do
fear of been charged falsely
fear of been blamed falsely
fear of been held hostage falsely
fear of been targeted falsely

Just to list a few. Just imagine how is to live without any of those fears, is it possible?

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