I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize my mind is a parasite, just here to suck the life energy out of the physical body.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am allowing the mind to suck the life-energy/substance out of the physical body by participating in the mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize participation in the mind is my first step in allowing the mind to become a parasite. Because I participate, because I continue to think, the mind is a natural alley, so I see/realize stopping the mind is my responsibility.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize a whole life-time can be wasted in ‘thinking/feeling’, it’s so easy. And in that I forgive me for allowing myself to participate in the mind and allow the body to be depleted.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize this ONE LIFE to live, and wasting that ONE LIFE in thinking/emotions/feelings is a total waste.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize that the mind at the final moments of death will ditch the body happily, as it cares not for body but for its own survival as consciousness/mind, the parasite.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be intimate with my body, so I direct myself be body-aware and breath-aware. I am here, I am breathing.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize that all those dead beings were regretting and missing their human physical bodies, because they were never ‘in the body’ during their times here, instead they were in the mind, so in this I see/realize that I still have the chance to be ‘in the body’ and not ‘in the mind’.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am still here alive and walking this ONE life, so I see/realize that I have a chance, the opportunity to be ‘in the body’ through breathing with awareness, in this I see/realize how stupid it would be to waste away my life in thinking/worrying/feeling/regretting etc. I mean no matter how vital or important an issue or a person is, if that point/person takes my entire life and turn me into a thinking box, a worrying box, then I am not doing any assistance to myself, only torturing myself with the mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am here as a PHYSICAL BODY, as a PHYSICAL being, my mental/emotional beingness is secondary, meaning only the physical body energy permits the generation of mind/emotional energy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize breathing with awareness is the first step, the first step to physical body awareness. Breathing is a physical act.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize it would be totally stupid and dumb to waste this ONE LIFE in thinking/regretting/sadness/feeling/loneliness etc, instead I direct myself to LIVE this ONE LIFE fully.
Imagine this ONE LIFE to live: what does it mean ONE LIFE to live. I mean in the span of eternity, infinity, this ONE LIFE is just a blink in the eye of existence, yet in that one blink, one life time, we completely forget and neglect this one life and this existence. I mean, there are millions of humans and gazillions of animal and plant life is waiting for a solution to this earth, they are awaiting for the abuse to end. They themselves are not in a position to end the abuse, so are waiting for us to self-realize and act, and while they wait for us, they are suffering immensely also. I mean, as long as we permit this abusive world system to continue we indirectly permit the violation of life on earth. Simple as that. So my stopping of my mind is vital, meaning, I have to become self-equal, only then will I be able to understand physically the situation/plight as-is in this physical existence. So walking this one life as a responsible being, as a being who has STOPPED his mind is very important.
Not considering this ONE LIFE to live is irresponsible, I mean, we are not here just to party away this ONE LIFE, and have a good time and then die away. I mean, where is the responsibility? I mean why did I come to this earth? Why did I take a human birth? Just to think, think, think, think, feel, feel, feel, and then die away? That sounds very selfish. It can’t be, there is more to this life, more to this ONE LIFE, and that is to be a RESPONSIBLE human being, who has STOPPED his mind, and become self-equal within my body.
I mean so easy to waste this life, so I stop, I breathe; I forgive myself for wasting my life so far in thinking, feeling, emotions and self-pity where I can think even more. I stop, I breathe, and I am here.
Just wasting away life on this earth, by having a nice time, good food, good sex, good life, good job, good car, good house, all that is cool, but not considering the plight of the rest of earthlings is pretty irresponsible. I mean I will have the biggest party of my life, once the equality and oneness of all beings is established, once all abuse on earth is stopped, oh yes, why not I will party, dance, all night. Meaning, there is all the reasons to party, because there is NO abuse on earth and so I have to direct this ONE LIFE to make sure that the abuse on earth ENDS.
I walk this journey, this journey to life, forgiving myself, correcting myself, and all that by first breathing with awareness.
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