Day 330 – A Translation Task to Hindi, Tamil, Urdu, and Sinhala.

Posted on May 22, 2013 by admin

Ok cool, I have taken the task to translate the Bill of Rights of the Equal Life Foundation into four languages, namely Hindi, Urdu, Tamil and Sinhala, covering large portions of India, Pakistan, Sri-Lanka and South-India where Tamil is mainly spoken. This is a cool project, the importance of this cannot be underestimated, and this is really a key step in educating people in those regions about the principles/foundation from which eventual solutions will be created.

The current political systems do not outline principles/foundations, as their sole motive is MONEY and POWER, though they may speak of policies, but it is evident without a doubt, policies are only a lip-service, has only helped the rich get richer and consequently the poor is getting poorer.

Drafting the Bill of Rights of the Equal Life Foundation is a major achievement, now the next step is getting people in various regions to understand them, so that in time, we can actually implement them.

The planet is in peril, there is no need to prove this, just look around, watch some news, read the newspaper, you will see/read the atrocious profit-seeking stuff we have accepted and allowed all in the name of MONEY. And the manipulation of information and brainwashing is not hard to see. We as humanity has been dumb down by those in power thru media/TV/newspapers etc; we simply have become a race of sheep, no more a human race.

This must be changed through understanding, realization and education. In that, translation job is very important to bring about new awareness, understanding among the people specifically in those regions.

On my part, this project will require patience and perseverance, and constant application of myself to get this job done. It is easy to give up, easy for finding excuses, bottlenecks and logistical issues, therefore breathing will be the key for me. The goal has been set, and committed, and now it is a matter of walking it, step by step, breath by breath.

So easy to live a selfish life, worry only about self’s mental/emotional/family/job problems and entirely neglect what’s going on in this world, not seen/realizing this world is a reflection of myself, I have allowed and accepted this to be as it is. Therefore it is my responsibility to take part in a new solution; hence I am walking with desteni and the Equal Life Foundation to birth a new world that is best for all.

Capitalism has failed, this is not a war against Capitalism, it is simply a realization that Capitalism has failed miserably, and it is beyond any arguments or debates. One has to commonsensically look around, study one’s world.

Recent factory collapse in Bangladesh is only a tiny evidence of how things are proceeding under Capitalism, so it goes without saying, we need a new solution, a new world, and a new planet. The Bill of Rights of the Equal Life Foundation is a great start; it all starts with the written word. So join us, study us, read our material, read the Bill of Rights, and I am looking for assistance in language translation/cross-reference/proof-reading etc, if you’re willing to help, please contact me. The solution is not a one man show, or one group show, we as humanity must come together to resolve the problems, the Equal Life Foundation, the Equal Money System, the Desteni group, are one umbrella, under which we can gather and stand together as one voice with many languages/cultures.

The following is the Bill of Rights of the Equal Life Foundation translated into Chinese, it gives an idea how this will look in Hindi, Urdu, Tamil and Sinhala when the translations are done.

Thanks.

平等生命基金會

人權法案

The Equal Life Foundation
Bill of Rights

平等生命基金會已經由一個全球性的社群所建立，這個社群是由來自世界各地許多文化的人士所組成。平等生命基金會的創建是要帶來所有生命與所有其他生命面向是平等的覺察和理解。這是以眾生擁有並且持有與生俱來的生命權的事實為前提，平等於每一個活著的生命，全體互相平等而沒有分離和階級的幻象，或者被人為系統和心智建構的覆蓋所損害。一切眾生的共同點是擁有、持有、維持平等的生命力。一切眾生與生俱來的權利是生命的權利，是充分根據這裡所陳述的基本原則作為平等生命的基礎，認定為是一切眾生不可或缺的，而特此聲明為所有人與生俱來的人權法案，無一例外。這個人權法案的基礎是實際的應用，據此每一個人就實際而言都被保證擁有一個值得生活的生命，因此生存和永續發展本來就是一切生命能擁有、分享和持有的，由此對於單一和整體而言一個充實的生命價值是平等可得的。

The Equal Life Foundation has been established by a global community consisting of people from many cultures from around the world. The Equal Life Foundation was created to bring forth the awareness and understanding that all life stands equal to all other aspects of life. This is premised on the fact that all living beings have and hold the inherent rights to and of life, equal by and for every living being, all as equal to each other without the illusions of separation and hierarchy, or impaired by the overlays of manmade systems and constructs of the mind. The common ground of all beings is the equal life force that each has, holds and retains. The inherent right of all living beings is the right to a life that is well-founded on the fundamental principles stated here as the foundation of Equal Life, recognized as essential to all beings and hereby declared as a Bill of Rights inherent to all, exclusive to none. The foundation of this Bill of Rights is practical application, whereby every being is guaranteed to have a life worthy of living in practical terms, so that survival and sustainability are a given that all beings have, share and hold, upon which a fulfilling life of value is equally available to one and all.

平等生命基金會認為生命的平等權如同生命的呼吸是每個人類第一優先且與生俱來的權利，在此聲明平等生命權應包含所有活著的男人、女人和兒童。

The Equal Life Foundation recognizes the Equal Right to Life as the first Inherent and Unalienable Right of Every Human Being endowed with the Breath of Life and Herewith Declares that an Equal Life Right Shall Include for all Living Men, Women and Children

1. 平等的經濟權，確保所有的財務需求是可獲取的和可得的，以保證一個健康而充實的生活的基本需求可以被實現和體現。
1. An Equal Economic Right that insures that all financial needs are accessible and available to ensure that the fundamental requirements of a healthy and fulfilling life can be realized and manifested.

2. 平等的健康權，提供了所有的要素去建立強壯的物質肉身，確保活力與健康伴隨著清晰的理智，情緒的平衡，和身體的穩定。
2. An Equal Health Right that provides all essentials to building strong physical embodiments, insuring vitality and well-being along with clarity of intellect, emotional balance and physical stability.

3. 每個兒童有安全和保障的平等權，以使免於恐懼、不安全和創傷的生活是被保證的，在其中父母的指導與表達的自由之間能夠互相的平衡，並且在一個富有創造力與歡樂的環境中生活，以使每個兒童成長到他或她的最大潛能作為一種生命本身獨特的表現。
3. An Equal Right of Safety and Security for every Child, so that a life free of fear, insecurity and trauma is assured, a life in which parental guidance is balanced with freedom of expression and lived within an environment of creativity and joy so that every Child grows into his or her utmost potential as a unique expression of Life Itself.

4. 平等的居住權，確保每個人和每個家庭有一個能夠滋養和支持生活的穩定家庭環境，妥善的坐落在社區內，以協助和支持著有尊嚴和完善的生活。
4. An Equal Housing Right that assures every being and every family a stable home environment that is nurturing and supportive of life, properly founded within communities that assist and support a life of dignity and integrity.

5. 平等的教育權，支持每一個人對卓越的追求和潛能的實現，輔助智力發展和實際應用，因此得以貢獻出他們的生命在一個可以提升所有參與者的生命而永續發展的地球上。
5. An Equal Education Right that supports every individual in his or her pursuit of excellence and fulfillment of potential, supporting intellectual development and practical applications thereof to contribute their lives as relevant to a sustainable Earth that enhances Life for all participants.

6. 平等的土地權，安置一切眾生到他們選擇稱為他們的家的土地上，其中活生生的身體行走在土壤上面使他們的生活被滋養和維持，同時提供了安全和生計，那接合了動物和植物王國於互動式的和諧中，所有人類與所有生命的生命力變得和諧平等如一。
6. An Equal Land Right that places every living being on the land they choose to call their home, where living bodies walk upon the soil from which their lives are nourished and sustained, that provides both security and sustenance, that engages with the animal and plant kingdoms in interactive concert that becomes harmonious with the life force of all beings and all of life equal as one.

7. 自由聯盟的平等權，提供一個動態的、互動的和免於束縛的社會與經濟環境，從這之中，能增進和提升全體最大利益的新想法、概念、科技和生產力可以伴隨著這樣的了解而出現，那就是這種聯盟並不侷限第一基本人權 – 即全體的平等生命權或任何由這條權利所衍伸而出的權利。
7. An Equal Right of Free Association that provides a social and economic milieu that is dynamic, interactive and free of constraints, out of which new ideas, concepts, technologies and productivity that enhance and advance what is best for all can emerge with the understanding that such association does not limit the first Fundamental Human Right – namely an Equal Life Right for all or any of the Rights flowing from this Right.

8. 對於研究、科技、和其他科學努力和實際實體化的平等權，那將優先大量地被應用在整治和重新平衡土地、天空、河川、海洋的物質環境和生態系統上，恢復這個星球的動態平衡，在這之中，應該出現一個促進和整合對全體生命和全體人類最大利益的蓬勃的全球性社群，以確保所有人類和所有生命作為一個整體能有最高可能的生活條件和水準。
8. An Equal Right to Research, Technology, and other scientific endeavors and practical manifestations that are freely applied first to the remediation and rebalancing of the physical environments and ecosystems of the earth, sky, rivers and oceans, returning the planet to dynamic equilibrium out of which shall emerge a thriving global community of advancement and integration for what is best for all life and all beings, insuring the highest possible living conditions and standards for all humanity and all life as a whole.

9. 獲取自然、金融、科學和智力資源的平等權，如此所有人可以自由的(免費的)和不受妨礙的去獲取生命與永續發展的基本建構元件，連同可以自由的(免費的)和不受妨礙的去獲取追求卓越的職業生涯所需要的任何一切，以促進這個全球社群進入提升生活的技術、發明和創新的新領域。
9. An Equal Right of Access to natural, financial, scientific and intellectual resources, so that all have free and unencumbered access to fundamental building blocks of life and sustainability, along with free and unencumbered access to whatever is required to pursue careers of excellence that advance the planetary community into new realms of life enhancing technologies, inventions and innovations.

10. 和平、富足和繁榮的平等權，免於傷害、暴力和破壞的威脅，在其中生命被奉為最高價值，而每一個選擇、每一個行動、每一個目的和每一個想法都被每一個人導向成為對全體最好的，如此所有人都活著如同整體和不可分割的生命在更大的整體的全體生命中和諧存在，如同與地球上所有生命的生活構築，共同成為在一個可永續的平衡之中的生命自身。
10. An Equal Right to Peace, Abundance and Prosperity, free of threat of harm, violence or destruction, where life is upheld as the highest value and every choice, every act, every deed and every thought is directed by each and every living being towards that which is best for all, so that all may live as whole and integral beings within the larger whole of All Life in harmony with existence as Life Itself within and as a sustainable balance with the living fabric of all life on Earth.

11. 自我治理的平等權，而不需要外在人為的政府控制去妨礙和控制社會的生命力及其每一個組成部分。這樣的自我治理權應該被整合進更大的社會整體和憲法形式之中，以維護更大整體的完整性，如此在一個真正的共和治理形式中，每一個個體在他或她的平等生命權中是被整個社會與政治結構所支持和保護的，如此連同每一個被大力地保護的權利，則社會的完整性永遠不會被破壞。
11. An Equal Right of Self-Governance without external controls of artificial government to impair and control the life force of society and every component part thereof. Such right of self-governance shall be integrated with the larger whole of social and constitutional forms that uphold the integrity of the greater whole, so that a true form of republic governance in which every individual is supported and defended in his or her right to an equal life by the whole social and political structure, with every right vigorously defended and the social integrity for all is never impaired.

12. 良心自由和道德建全的平等權，支持所有人過著一種不受心理束縛和情緒操弄的生活，過著一種自由地表達自己而免於壓抑或害怕被報復的生活，過著一種免於害怕匱乏和限制的生活。
12. An Equal Right of Freedom of Conscience and Moral Integrity, that supports for all a life that is lived unfettered by constraints of psychological and emotional manipulation, a life that is free to express itself without inhibition or fear of retribution, a life that is free from the fear of lack and limitation.

13. 幣制建全的平等權，包含一個等價系統，以一個單位價值等同於一個統一度量的建構元件開始，由此確保沒有人、組織或機構可以操弄貨幣和金融系統來自我擴張而損害到什麼是對全體最好的，所以這樣一個整合的、平衡的和平等的系統支持並提高了貿易、企業、循環和保值如同在全球經濟系統中供應生命的根本。
13. An Equal Right to Monetary Integrity with a parity system that starts with the building blocks that one unit of value is equal to one unity of measure, thereby insuring that no man, organization or institution can manipulate the monetary and financial systems to their own self-aggrandizement to the detriment of what is best for all, so that such an integrated, balanced and equal system supports and enhances trade, enterprise, circulation and value retention as fundamental in a global economic system that serves Life.

14. 心靈平衡的平等權，讓支持全體生命平等的每一種信仰被視為和持續作為生命本身的平等和一體，其中心靈被理解為每一個人吸氣和呼氣的靈感，和生命本身如同是一個整體，和被全體共享的不可分割的如同是在對全體最好的原則之中，而這不會以任何方式縮減全體為平等生命的第一基本人權。
14. An Equal Right to Spiritual Equilibrium so that every faith that supports equality for all Life is seen and sustained as equal and one with life itself, where spirit is understood as the inspiration of the in-breath and out-breath of every being, and Life itself as a whole, and undivided principle shared by all as and within what is best for all, where this does not in any way diminish the first Basic Human Right of an Equal Life for All.

15. 所有生命的平等權是基於全體眾生被賦予不可剝奪的自決權與最低生活品質的基本保證，這種保證透過擁有生活必需品來達成，例如適當的營養，衣著，住房，獲得知識和教育，訓練出能夠支持和維持他們的生活和家庭的實行能力，整合進他們的社會、經濟、家族、社區、文化、國家和全球關係之中，如此所有人可以，平等如一的，團結一致的表明這個全體生命平等的準則，如同是最根本的平等權。
15. All Equal Rights of Life are founded upon the principle that all Living Beings are endowed with the unalienable rights of self-determination and the fundamental assurances of the minimum qualities of life, such assurances to be fulfilled by having the necessities of life such as proper nourishment, clothing, shelter, access to knowledge and education, training for fulfilling capacities to support and sustain their lives and their families, to be integrated within their social, economic, familial, community, cultural, national and global relationships so that all may, equal as one, stand together to make manifest this basis of Equal Life for All as the most fundamental Equal Right.

16. 後代子孫能夠接收到一個沒有汙染、疾病、飢餓、暴力和破壞的居住星球的平等權，如此生命將持續並蓬勃發展從現在直到永遠。
16. The Equal Right of future generations to receive a living planet free of pollution, disease, hunger, violence and destruction so that life shall endure and thrive into eternity now and forever.

Day 328 – Mind-movies cannot be trusted. Breathe. Let go.

Posted on May 20, 2013 by admin

It’s funny out of all the memories, the mind will only present the nasty/painful ones, I wonder why, and it should make us wonder about the workings of the mind. I mean so many memories, of all kinds, yet a very particular memory is what I saw in a semi-dream state other day, it was painful, then I recalled the mechanics of the mind, whose singular purpose is to suck the life-source/substance out of my physical body.

Also memories are stored in the body/flesh not in the mind as commonly known, the mind extracts the memory items as needed for the mining job, and this goes to show how blinded and robotic us humans are. Once I recalled this point I didn’t participate in the semi-dream/memory show, I just looked at it, saw the raw/painfulness of it, and that’s it, didn’t continue the mind-movie/memory. Mining the body by the mind is the real goal, I mean, it’s happening all the time, but strange enough we have no idea about this, only through desteni research I came to know about these stuff. Mind is a parasite that you must tame but not defeat as defeat implies war/separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not see/realize that the memories are shown to me in a way so that the mind can extract physical life/substance for its own sake; in this I see/realize the parasitic nature of the mind. In this I forgive me for not seen/realizing that I have been an ally in the mining process, in this physical depletion process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize that I had no say in bringing up that particular memory in semi-dream show, it was presented so that I will follow it like a sheep, wallowing in pain and whatnot, in this I see/realize the generation of emotions is in the best interest of the mind, because emotions mean energy for the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize in fact every thought/emotions and feeling is ‘presented’ to me, whereas I am not the driver but driven by the mind, to mine energy from the physical body. I forgive me for not seen/realizing that I am responsible for my body, I am responsible for the well-being of my body, meaning I am responsible for stopping of the physical energy extraction which is happening continuously.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am responsible for allowing the depletion and abuse of the physical body. So I direct myself to be aware of this and stop it, by breathing with awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize the mind can throw anything and everything for me to FEEL some shit, and thereby the mind can mine the body, extract the physical resource/substance for its own survival.

I as the mind, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my end therefore continuously extract physical substance/resource from the human physical body. I as the mind I forgive myself for believing that I must extract and suck the body dry to its death so that I as the mind can survive. In this I as the mind I forgive me for not seen/realizing that the death of the body means I as the mind will cease too.

I as the mind I forgive myself for blindly extracting/mining the physical body for energy so that it can be fed to my survival and the survival of the heavens. I as the mind I forgive me for not seen/realizing that I am a slave, an energy miner for the heavens, and my sole purpose is to feed the heaven by sucking my host, the body dry to death. I as the mind, I direct myself to stop the fear of death, and stop the mining game because it’s all done out of fear of survival. I as the mind, I stop, I breathe; I remain here, in equality and oneness with the body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be an ally of the mind by continuously participating in the thinking/feeling/emotional machine without any directive self-will to do so, but only following the orders. I forgive me for not taking self-responsibility for STOPPING the mind, for stopping the feeling/emotional states of the mind, in this I see/realize it is my responsibility to breathe and stop the mind-states.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize it is my self-will that matters, am I directing my life as self-will or letting the emotional/feelings direct me?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am responsible for my emotional states.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize that I am responsible for my body, for its depletion, so I direct myself to breathe/slow-down and STOP the depletion of the body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize that I am responsible for breathing with awareness, because I see that not breathing with awareness is the first problem.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize breath is life, and not breathing with awareness means that I am abdicating my self-presence, my self-will, my self-responsibility, my self-awareness and letting the MIND take control over me, which is not acceptable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize that no matter what is being thrown at me to think/feel/get-emotional, I see/realize that it is not my self-directed thinking or feeling, it’s only a mind-job for its own survival, therefore I realize it is my self-responsibility to breathe/slow-down and be HERE, as HERE is the LIFE, not in the mind space, in some imaginary lala land.

When and as I see myself dreaming/seen/thinking memories stuff from the past, I stop, I breathe, because I see/realize I am no more an ally of the mind to mine my body, so I stop this physical abuse, I breathe, I remain here.

When and as I see myself stuck in the feelings/memories/thoughts I stop, I breathe, I remain here.

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Day 325 – Information processing, just like Breathing, do it step-by-step without Rushing.

Posted on May 16, 2013 by admin

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear when I am given new projects and asked to investigate the root cause of a problem. In this I see/realize that giving into fear of not finding a solution is not the right starting point, rather, I direct myself to see/investigate and research the problem/solution instead of fearing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize reacting in fear, fear of not finding solutions is not the way to start a project, instead I direct myself to study, research, investigate, experiment solutions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize, I simply have to do the basic things first, investigate and understand the problem, without reacting in fear, or fearing not having solutions. Because I see/realize that once the problem is really understood, all the details are gathered, it is easier to proceed in finding a solution. Reacting in mind/fear is not assisting, or useful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize that lack of details; lack of understanding of the problem is sometime the biggest bottleneck. Cannot solve a problem, if you don’t know what the problem is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize, once the problem is well understood, the initial details are gathered, then, it is a matter of proceeding to experiment solutions, without getting stuck in the mind of fear. It is a matter of trying one solution after another, trying/researching without getting stuck in preconceived solution-can. Simply look at the problem, look the details, the data, look at the available tools/techniques/tricks to resolve the problem. I mean, there is no magic, nor is this rocket science, only matter of looking at the available information clearly without pre-CON-ceived ideas.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize recording/writing down the data from each step of the research is important, it’s like making a list of progress, which helps in comparing various methods/solutions. In this I see/realize finding solutions involves writing the steps/data/output down. See the solution path on paper, from the problem to solution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize communicating the problem with others/peers is critical, in that I see clearly sharing/showing the results/data/path is important. Sometimes it’s not about finding the final solution, rather the various experiments conducted, which may help the next person to have a better perspective about the solution. Sometimes finding the solution is an evolutionary process, for which, many contribute, therefore I see/realize clear unambiguous communication is important. Taking the time to breathe, slow down, putting all the information down is vital, without giving into the rushness of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize finding solutions is a step-by-step process, just like breathing. It involves walking each step, covering all common sense steps, writing the results/observations down, and then communicating them, for further perspective. “Information gathering” is what sometimes the most important part, find the right information, gathering them, and analysis them, without giving into mind-fears. Because once the mind gets choked in fears, even the basic steps become impossible. Therefore I direct myself to slow down, breathe, look at the basic steps, all the required data, “gathering information”, and then look at the information, before I proceed to experiment things. Also I direct myself to write things down, as I proceed/experiment things. Because I see/realize this is not rocket science, rather, simply look at all the data, understand them, classify them, and write them down, because I realize organizing the data is key to discover solutions.

This is simply data analysis, the basics of software debugging, problem-solution, step by step, at each step, there is debugging/data analysis going on, and so it’s important to not skip any step, which we tend to do in a hurry to get to the final answer, which is madness, because missing a step on the way will mess up everything. Therefore I direct myself slow down, breathe, pay attention to every step on the way, and I see/realize if I miss a step, if I screw up a step, then the whole investigation/experiment will be messed up, so I direct myself to slow down, breathe, and walk it step by step, just like breathing.

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Day 324 – Temptations

Posted on May 14, 2013 by admin

I have to write a blog today, have been missing a few here and there. Though I see there is a slight resistance, calling it tiredness is easy way out, but I am pushing through, just keep on writing, I mean there is always something to write. There is so much bullshit going on in me and in this world at large. Even just listening to people talking in a café can give many subjects to write about, at this very moment I hear a young couple, must be in their early twenties, arguing about something, looks like he was going through her emails, sort of spying on her, and she is pissed off, well I don’t blame her. I mean, trust is key to relationships, if you have to break-into your partner’s email and spy on them, oh man, something is seriously wrong there.

Yeh right ‘fucked up’ he admits it too. So is this blog tonight about eavesdropping? It is kind of funny listening to couples arguing, especially the young ones, it’s getting spicy, now I am not being cool here, listening to other’s talking and writing a blog about their material. Fuck it. Well, now he is confronting her about texting to another guy; may be they are in their teens, now there is silence, questioning about texting put the couple in an odd spot, I guess he hit a soft spot. He is constantly questioning her now, well, I better leave this romantic boxing match alone, let them sort it out. I bet they will both beat me up if they knew I am writing my blog based on their ‘discussion’.

Love, desire, and fear. Desire and fear loss goes hand in hand. First the desire becomes so out of control, especially if the other is out of this world hot/handsome/beautiful, then you get the object of your desire, and then what happens? The fear of loss kicks in. oh no, he is possessed by fear of loss, he is just nonstop questioning her, I am getting the sense that fear of loss is possessing him. I suppose I have been in his shoes, where I become completely possessed by fear of loss, and then I am gone, irrational, fucked up.

Anyways, looks like texting can land couples in hot water. You text the wrong person, or at the wrong time, can easily get caught. It’s all about quick excitements, energy rush, mind is having loads of fun, a quickie for the mind, texting is a perfect tool for the mind to feed on.

The bottom line is lots of shit going on, minds are going crazy. In this I see/realize I have a major responsibility to myself, for my mind, to tame my mind so to speak. I mean it’s so easy to fall into these energy quickies, nothing like a little nasty text message, it’s so tempting. And you will be tested to the absolute, and perhaps that’s why texting is here, to test you.

Wow, so many little ways to get energy highs, a little hi, can go a long way. These are the days of temptation, seriously. Money, sex, gossip, power, all of it can be tempting. I mean power over others in so many ways is tempting.

This is where breathing is self-supportive and helps in self-stability, every moment matters, I mean, a text message can come in a moment, 1 text message in 1 moment can destroy your life. It is a powerful temptation. So the key is to breathe and remain here in every breath. Otherwise you will fall for the sugar coated donut, so yummy, so addictive; such is the power of energy addiction, the stuff the mind loves.

Every look is in fact can be a point of temptation, I mean, how often does my eyes wonder on beautiful sights, it’s amazing, clearly an addiction to energy, just like those tempting text messages. This is why breathing is absolutely important, every breath, breath by breath, moment by moment, look by look, everything in fact, I must be here, breathing, otherwise the road to temptation is right here, the evil is always here, showing the way live, which is the reverse of evil. Thinking is a great temptation too; there is always the excitement to think some shit about something. There is energy experience in thinking, that’s why it’s so addictive, it’s like the mind is always texting you. That’s what thinking is, mind asking for energy from the physical body, and we so blindly fall to it.

So time for correction. Time to breathe, time to pause, slow down, look, consider what is best for self and best for all, time to self-move, self-direct, time to say NO to the mind, time to say NO to the fake shyness, fake ego games, time to observe self, self-physical movements, time to observe how I participate in my own bullshit, mentally, emotionally, physical, how I give into fears, doubts, anger, laziness, lethargy, self-pity all that, is kind of temptation, feeding the mind in so many ways, but living here is missing, just a pre-programmed robot, doing its thing.

Every breath, how do I move, am I aware of myself, my surroundings, my presence, my mind, my breath, my emotional states, specially things like fear, do I give into fears. Memories are great temptations, recalling and replaying memories is great fun and great temptation. Thinking all those juicy stuff. Memories are like pictorial text messages, instantly coming up, every moment; some shit is here to excite you. The great temptation. But unfortunately it doesn’t last, just for few fleeting moments, then the boredom of the mind returns with a vengeance. And it’s getting only worse.

Well the couple is rather stable now, talking normally, and I cannot hear anything. Oh I see them smiling, maybe there will be some make-up sex, who knows. That’s another fun side to fighting, there is a hidden reward in the end, maybe that’s why couples love fighting, the anticipation of make-up sex.

Breathe, become self-observant, watch the mind, feel the body, observe the million temptations presented, see how easily the mind/you/I can fall into it. Pictures, photos, memories, text messages, looks, sights, all that is only a picture, for a moment gives a great temptation for the mind. How robotic is life, so breathe, LIVE as a human, not as a ROBOT. Join us: www.desteni.org

Day 323 – Take your Life seriously. Not to be wasted.

Posted on May 13, 2013 by admin

I was driving other day for 5 hours, during which time I was listening to eqafe.com interviews (MP3s), loads of common sense and realizations. I know if I tell this to my friend Mike, he will ask “so tell me one thing you learned”. One thing I learned from it would be, take this process seriously, and take your life seriously. Not to be wasted on bullshit. Life on earth is the only place where you can re-birth yourself as LIFE through the physical, I mean once you’re dead, you’re dead/fucked, and then your process becomes extensive and existential. That was a cool realization, because in this one life to live, we just spend it on mundane, mental bullshit instead of LIVING the live in what is best for self and ALL.

Another point I heard was: survival. Everything we do, our relationships, jobs, social, conversations, I mean the whole life is about SURVIVING, not living. The human body on the other hand, its parts/organ, doesn’t seek to survive within an individualist agenda, the parts co-exist to LIVE and making it possible for this BODY to LIVE. Imagine if the organs, parts, bones, skin, flesh, blood start to compete against each other, and riot against each other, and dominate each other, imagine the inner chaos there will be within the human body. And that’s exactly what’s going on in this physical existence on earth. I mean there is the ruling class, the elitists, and rest of wage-slaves and the real slaves, all competing, trying to surviving while the selected few having all the fun. For rest, the vast majority of humans, its hell on earth, it’s not living at all, it’s all about survival. Not like the human body at all.

That’s was a nice point to hear, I think I heard that on the soul of money interview series.

Let the mind go, let the mind die, and it seems it is the nature of things, when something dies, another emerges. So when the mind dies, the physical emerges, something like that I heard Anu saying. Anu is the ex-God, ex-creator, and your ex-tormentor, the God who created and designed the fine details of your MIND. So thank him for your mind troubles, but unfortunately you cannot blame him, for you must take responsibility for your MIND. And that’s a process, because the mind has become so embedded in the physical body, therefore it will take extensive writing, self-forgiveness, self-correction, and physical-living to rebirth/emerge the physical. There is no switch to turn off the mind, it must be done through a process only, and that is extensive, but luckily there is ample support (see desteni.org).

I don’t know how the fuck these religious people believe in their books, where is self-change, where is self-correction, where is world-change, where is heaven-on-earth? I mean, what is that religions are promising us? A great heavenly life in the afterlife? While completely neglecting this physical world, and how fucked up is that. So all of humanity is focused on going to heaven, a better place after death, and nobody wants to care for this world. Which religion is interesting in making this world a heaven on earth? Islam, Christianity, Buddhism, Sufism, Hinduism, Hare-Krishna, and you name it, all of them will promise you a heaven after death, but nobody is willing to fix this planet.

So this process is serious from another perspective, this life is a chance to clean up this world, and to participate in that effectively self-change is the first step.

Listening to Anu is cool, I highly recommend it. Do that before you die, and you will most certainly die someday, hopefully not right in this moment, but soon that moment will be here, then it might be little too late to listen to Anu speaking.

There you go, I saw the portal just come online, sunette spies, not spice, though she can be very spicy with her directness, she is the interdimensional portal, through whom, the beings from the other side speaking to us humans now. Even the demons are speaking to us, that’s fascinating, elephants, ants, snails, owls, you name it, all kinds of beings, animals, masters, gods, are speaking to us. But the message is one: equality and oneness. Humans must wake up, their minds must die, and their physical must emerge, so that we can see/realize/understand the oneness of all life, and create a heaven-on-earth. I don’t give a fuck about heaven in the afterlife.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I must take this process, my life, seriously, I mean, wasting it away in mind-bullshits is complete waste.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize that this one life matters so much, so much so, even the existence depends on my life. Meaning, me not walking this process matters to ALL. Therefore I see/realize I must take each moment, each breathe, everything in fact, seriously, a sense of realness, so that we can all LIVE not just survive. Because at the moment, life is about mind-surviving, money surviving.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize my LIFE is my Process, therefore I see that in everything I do/say/write/speak I have the chance to stop my mind, a chance to breathe with awareness, and thereby slowly but surely emerge the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize, in everything I do, in every conversation, in every moment, in every exchange, in every work situation, travel, everywhere in fact, is the chance to STOP my MIND, breathe and rebirth myself as life. Join us in this journey to life. www.desteni.org.

Day 321 – Not cool to be untrustworthy.

Posted on May 9, 2013 by admin

Falling is shameful. Yes there is self-forgiveness, but that doesn’t mean falling is anyway justifiable or excusable, if anything self-forgiveness brings more responsibility to STAND firmly. I feel much shame for falling, again and again, bit like broken promises of a drunken man, ‘no I will never do it, just one last time, just one more drink’, then as he approaches the bar next day, all promises and resolves turn to dust, one more time he falls. This is something I can easily relate to. There is a point in my life lately, I have been falling, and I feel great shame for this, I mean, what does my words mean, if I continue to accept and allow the bullshit of excuses, or ‘just one more time’. I mean, I must stand, absolutely, firmly with strong resolve, determination, and strength of character. All that comes with a commitment to life, so the question is “I am going to abuse life, just one more time”?

I have to realize that I am allowing backdoors, making room for a sneak preview, so that I can abuse life but still want to look good, I mean, how fucked up is that. I am ashamed of myself for abusing life yet again, and again. I mean, when will I stand as an absolute pillar who can stand no matter what for life of all? Allowing shameful backdoors is hardly trustworthy, who will trust me, who will consider me as a reliable person, they will know, I am untrustworthy, unreliable, cannot count on, etc. that’s pretty shameful.

The biggest shame is I have said these words before, I have done commitments, I have done the forgiveness of myself, I have done the writings, and STILL I have allowed myself to participate in abuse of life, allowed myself to walk through that backdoor, where I allowed myself that just ‘one more night’ kind of shit. I feel great shame today and this has been there for a while now.

The need of the hour is absolute resolve, I mean, a strong understanding, realization, determination, and a strong commitment to LIFE. I will never take that step to abuse life in whatever form, knowingly or unknowingly, is the commitment I must make to myself. This is not a public announcement or PR stunt, no, simply me creating myself as a TRUSTWORTHY human, because I am hardly trustworthy, even little things like anger can so easily consume me leaving all those around me in emotional danger. So clearly others cannot trust me, cannot feel safe in my presence, because they never know what kind of a demon I will become.

So I have to take pause on this, and really see what the fuck am I doing, what am I accepting and allowing, what kind of self-manipulation am I participating in, I mean, who am I deceiving or playing tricks on? When a person is untrustworthy, well, we don’t’ want to do anything with such people, shameful place to be in.

I have to recreate myself as self-trust, I have fucked it up, I have to reemerge myself as a trusting human being, currently nobody can trust me, because I myself wont’ keep up that self-trust. I have to really look at this shame I am feeling, the real shame, down in my guts, that I am somehow unable to stand absolutely firmly with a strong resolve to say NO to abusing life. I mean even anger is abuse of life, so allowing that is abuse of life. Who will trust me if I am an angry freak who is always ready to explore. So that’s not cool. I have to investigate my trust, my commitment, and stand for LIFE. This one life to live, what’s the point of falling, falling and falling and then self-forgiving?

Self-forgiveness is cool, but it is time to stand absolutely firmly to stop the abuse that I have accepted and allowed every now and then with that ‘just one more time’ justification. Not acceptable. Join us: www.desteni.org

Day 319 – Friendships: From Gossip to Common Sense support.

Posted on May 5, 2013 by admin

So start writing says Bernard.

Writing is righting. In writing, we can see what’s going on and place the mind shit onto paper, instead of carrying them within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can ‘think’ through my problems instead of actually writing them in detail and then forgiving them. I see/realize I cannot ‘think’ through the issues, I have to write/right the issues.

I have been carrying some old friendships that has been around for a while, now I see/realize they are totally useless, only just feeding the gossip box. Just talking shit, just whining and complaining, I mean cool to have friendships but it seems all I do with them is just whine/mourn/blame/complain and gossip. And strange enough I call that a friendship. I fear letting these friendships go, within the idea that I will be friendless.

So I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto friendships within the idea that I will be a loser without friends, and within the idea that I ‘need’ them. In this I forgive me for holding onto past friends within the idea that they can come handy on a lonely evening, can feed my mind with some energy during dark moments. In this I see/realize these so-called friendships are just that feeding the loneliness, feeding the gossip, giving some idea of social life, I mean who would I be without any friendships whatsoever?

I am facing a friendship like situation which clearly not supportive, more like a gossip box, good for a lonely cold day, just to chit chat a bit, whine, mourn/blame, complain a bit. Then again I don’t’ know what is that I really want from this friendship/person, it’s not an agreement, not a relationship, not a relative, not a potential candidate, then who the fuck is this person, just a mind-feeder, good for a lonely night, to gossip, to whine, to blame, to scold, to nag, instead of facing the loneliness head-on, I have kept this person/friend as a backup to escape loneliness and feed the mind.

I know a lot of people through this person, I have come to know her family members too, there has been a social expansion due to this person, but the actual friendship as such, is questionable. I mean, if I want to continue gossip, blame, complain, whine, mourn, play a bit of mean game, play bit ego game, yeh then its ok. I think I am being selfish here, knowing very well that this friendship is not best for all, I still keep it, still hold onto it, you know, when I am totally bored, someone to just chit-chat, nag, whine, complain, blame etc. pretty fucked up, I know. Its not good for anyone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hang onto friendships because I think I can still get something out of them, so I continue to keep the friendships even after knowing it’s not assisting me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize that friendship as such is not needed, I mean, why do I need this particular friendship? A person to gossip with? Someone who will listen to my whining? Someone who is always there for a chit-chat, good for lonely days, someone who I can visit, hangout, go for coffee etc., but what is that we actually communicate? Just gossiping, no sharing of common sense, just gossiping, chit-chatting nonsense, whining about others, complain about others.

Well instead of totally ending the friendship, I could certainly change the direction, the flow, the nature of the friendship, since there has been some years gone into this, and many folks are involved, I see no reason to entirely END it. However, I could direct the conversations to common sense, sharing of common sense, turn any issues to common sense resolutions, something real, something what is best for all, use the moment to cut through the brainwashing. Things like that, either she will run away and naturally end the so-called friendship OR she will see the common sense and realize some points for self-consideration. But first, I have to be willing to let this go, I cannot HOLD ON it, and DESIRE it, WANT it, and still play the common sense card. I mean I have to be able to LET GO of this friendship completely, then, yes, I am clear, I have no reason to hang onto it, I have no reason to keep in the closet for lonely evenings to dive into gossip/chatter. I mean, that’s pretty fucked up. Cannot keep people as covers for my loneliness.

From now on, I will no longer accept and allow this friendship to exist as a point of cover for loneliness/gossip/chit-chat etc. I see the friendship is here, so that’s cool, but no need to continue in the old style/format. I don’t’ need a gossiper, I don’t’ need someone to dump my blames onto, I don’t’ need someone to whine to, I mean, I can change that, I can instead share common sense, be here, share a moment of breathing, share what is best for all, assist them to cut through their brainwashing. Then, naturally the friendship will either disappear OR its nature will change. There is no point in hanging onto people so that I have a cover for lonely nights, or bored evenings, I mean, that’s fucked up pretty bad.

I call it friendship, but is it really, it’s nothing more than a gossip session. A person to share to my mind-shit with and apparently they understand me, well, what’s really happens is, they just share their mind-shit and I share mine, so we just share our respective mind-shits, and call it a friendship. wow, what a waste breathing.

Then for god’s sake, what is a friendship, is friendship ever possible?

I direct myself to reconsider this friendship, the nature of it, and the content/style of it. I direct myself to reconsider the conversations, the content of conversations, from mindless gossip to actual support. From gossip/chatter to real support dialog. I direct myself to pause when and as I see that our conversation is dragging on endless mind-bullshit, then I stop, I breathe. When and as I see myself gossiping with this person, i stop, I breathe, then I direct to see what is the common sense in this, instead of just blabering away, feeding nonsense. When and as I see myself just talking for the sake of talking, to keep on the gossip on for the night, I stop, I breathe, because I see/realize this friendship has not evolved/helped neither of us over the years, just only kept the gossip on. When and as I see myself talking about others, and their shit, I stop, I breathe, and I direct myself to see our shit, and direct them in common sense.

Basically, I want a complete change of this friendship, no more gossip, no more shit talking about others, no more whining, no more boredom talk, if there is an actual practical issue to discuss, then we discuss in a common sense practical manner, but I stop just gossiping, endless mindless chatter, which clearly show we are only feeding the bored minds. Join us: www.desteni.org

Day 317 – Try: Breath awareness, and Body awareness.

Posted on May 3, 2013 by admin

Listening to death research interviews done by eqafe.com is really cool. One of the points I got was, how the body is left to die by itself, while the mind conveniently ditches the body in the final moments. Having sucked the substance/life energy out of the physical body for the whole life-time, the mind will ditch the body; mind is only concern about itself. So one of the dead beings said that he missed his body, watching it die away piece by piece, part by part, organ by organ. And the mind is detached from the suffering. The person expressed great regret for missing his body, not being able to be with his physical body anymore, it’s gone now. So that’s cool realization to hear.

So here I am a living being, I have a mind, and I have a body. My body is alive too, I am touching my body, here it is, it’s here, I mean, it’s the vehicle through which ME operates, I am able to sit, type, eat, walk, drink, sleep, live etc because I have this BODY, wow, and at the end this body will be no more, it will return to dust. I will just have to watch my body perishing away.

So when the beings said that they miss their bodies, that was a cool realization to hear. I mean, we often hear “oh I miss them, I miss her, I miss him” etc, but never “oh I miss my body”. That apparently will come at death, as you cross over, as you leave your body behind, and YOU will see your body dying away. And the mind will see that too.

Anyways, what’s important to take from that interview is that BE WITH THE BODY HERE NOW, I mean why wait for death to ‘appreciate/acknowledge’ the body. The physical body is part of the physical existence. I mean I exist here because I have a physical body, whereas in the afterlife no more physical body, just the beingness of ME only.

How to appreciate this body I have here/now? Besides all the common sense stuff to care for the body, the most important thing is to be intimate with the body, and do that by breathing with awareness. Breath awareness stops the mind, and that stops the depletion of the body. The biggest tormentor of the human body is THINKING/FEELINGS/EMOTIONS. The production of mental, emotional energy by using the physical body. Breathing with awareness stops all that. With Breath-awareness comes body-awareness. So that’s the key, breathe, and stop the mind, be intimate with the body, meaning pay attention to the body.

Getting stuck in the head is no act of care for the body, that’s a gross negligence of the human body. Be in the body often as you can. Breathing is the bridge to the body. Breathing also help to slow down the moments, which can greatly assist into looking at the moments before reacting.

So easy to get caught up about something, and the mind is always ready to feed juicy material for thinking. Able to say NO, and breath is the key. I mean, once participated in the mind it can go on and on and on and on. Have to stop it, breathe, be in the body.

Getting into the body is the access point to realize the oneness and equality of this physical existence. I mean how would you communicate with a butterfly? Can’t do that from the mind, otherwise we would equally and one communicate/understand the animal kingdom.

I realize my mind is a parasite, a white-light kind of a thing, it wants LIGHT and LOVE, at any cost, I mean that’s why thinking, fighting, arguing, feeling, all that so addictive. Keep on feeling, keep on thinking, it’s an addiction. And the mind controllers feed us enough to keep us stuck in the mind. Body awareness is not taught, in fact discouraged by religions (they say body is not real, only the soul/atman/afterlife is real, this physical is unreal). Fucked up reverse spirituality. The real spirituality is grounded in the physical body.

Yet the mind is not an enemy, thoughts are not enemies, I mean that would be separation, I am all of it, I am my thoughts, my mind, my consciousness, my emotions, my feelings, my body, I am me. Yet I see/realize I cannot allow the thoughts as me to have its way. It’s like training a naughty child, no matter how naughty the child is, it’s still your child, can’t disown the child, have to discipline the child, direct the child. Same way, no wars against the mind, or thoughts, simply redirect by breathing, and stopping the thoughts.

Even the so-called ‘energy’ is ME, mind energy, emotional energy, feeling energy, nervous energy, anxiety energy are all ME. They exist in separation of me, meaning, they are ME, yet separate from me. And that separation is a root cause of the problem. So self-equality, self-oneness means bring the body and all of it as ONE, all of it, including things like nervous energy. Becoming aware of all such things. Become aware of the energies of the body, things like nervous energy, tension, anxiety, fear, anger, it’s all energy movements (as me). Through breathing energy can be stabilized. I am here as ONE, there is no separation in ME, all of ME is ME. And as me I stop some parts or direct them as they are not needed anymore.

That’s the ultimate principle equality and oneness of this existence. The first step to realizing that principle is through the body and breath. Mind cannot do that, otherwise every Joe will be communicating with snails, whales, demons, understanding the plight of every human being and working to bring a solution, which is not the case now, we don’t’ give a fuck about this physical existence, and why is that? Because we don’t’ give a fuck about our own breath, about own body. Self-negligence of breath and body is a SIN yes (I reluctantly use that word SIN). Responsibility is the right word, not sin, it is my responsibility to be aware of my breath and my body.

This ONE life to live, so why waste it in the mind, thoughts, emotions and feelings. Be in the body, become self-equal, realize self-oneness and through that realize the oneness to rest of the physical existence. The plight of this earth and its inhabitants are waiting for a solution, as currently we are eating it up very fast through our MINDs.

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Day 315 – more on Self-Responsibility.

Posted on April 30, 2013 by admin

I am responsible for myself. I am responsible for what I allow and accept as thoughts, emotions and feelings. No matter how and what another says, it is within my responsibility always on how I take that, or how I react because I am responsible for what goes within me. I mean the grey matter is my area, I am the master of the grey matter, but unfortunately I have given up responsibility for myself and have let the grey matter decide for me. And that’s a real shame, letting the mind decided what my life will be.

Mind doesn’t have my best interest nor the interest of what is best for all, it has only the interest of its own survival. But at the end, it will even ditch the body, the host, kind of ‘letting the body rot away in the final moments’ (listen to some death research interviews by eqafe.com). Yet all the while, the mind is the master, the mind rules our lives.

So as a responsible being, the first thing I must do is to take control over the mind, meaning, don’t let the mind decide anything for me, its thoughts, emotions and feelings are not my master, I am the master. Taking self-control from the mind-control is a responsibility. I mean, otherwise, other forces will take over my self-control; I will be a mere donkey not a human being. I will be led by others, instead of me leading me. so responsibility is the key, when and as I see myself giving up my responsibility to my mind, I stop, I breathe, seen/realizing I cannot let the mind take over the control (that would be mind-control), I must be the self-controller. And that starts with breathing with awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am responsible for myself, otherwise the mind controllers will gladly take over and I will be mind-controlled.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am responsible for what I allow and accept within my mind, no matter what. I am the permission giver to my mind; I must pass/approve what goes within my mind that is my responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize either I self-control and be self-responsible OR let the mind-controllers take over and be mind-controlled.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am responsible for every emotion, feeling that I participate within me. Its upto me what I allow and what I participate in, and consequently to face whatever outcome may come.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am responsible for my life, for my physical mental well-being, I am responsible for my body, my future, my career, for the people in my life, I am responsible for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize taking self-responsibility is actually an act of care even for others, because out of self-responsibility comes responsibility for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize that I am fearing responsibility and avoiding responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am responsible for stopping my fears, what-ifs from my mind, I see/realize that mind will throw anything and everything at me to dwell in the thoughts, emotions and feelings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize without self-responsibility for my mind, no relationship is ever possible because then I will be always looking at others to care for me instead of me caring for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize that my words must be supportive to others, it must assist them, not break them down. That is my responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize everything that goes inside my mind, I am responsible for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am responsible for stopping the fears, worries and anxieties within me, it is my responsibility to stop my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize that I am responsible for stopping the anger, rage, violence within my mind, in this I see/realize anger/rage/mental violence is NEVER EVER acceptable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my mind, fear my emotions, fear my loneliness, in this I see/realize it is my responsibility to STOP my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I miss caring for myself because I don’t’ care for myself and that’s why I miss caring for another. In this I see/realize self-care is the first step.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am responsible for my life, I cannot waste my life just thinking/dreaming/imagining about one person, I am responsible for breathing and living my life here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am responsible for my LIFE, and all of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize breathing with awareness is a great act of self-responsibility, not see/realize that’s where self-care, self-responsibility starts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize in breathing with awareness, I become self-aware, I become aware of my thoughts, emotions and feelings, I become self-aware.

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Day 313 – Human Body is like a water pond, keep it calm by breathing with awareness.

Posted on April 25, 2013 by admin

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rattle mentally, and emotionally not seen/realizing how this can impact my body, the water pond where so many life forms live and co-exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize it is my responsibility to remain calm and be here, just like a calm pond where live exist underneath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize it is my responsibility to breathe and remain calm, not rattle the pond through mental and emotional upheavals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize my life is my responsibility, my body is my responsibility, the zillions of living beings inside the body are my responsibility also, for which I must remain calm, and stable, not rattle mentally or emotionally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am here, I am breathing, and there is nothing more or less I can do. Breathing with awareness is the key.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize that I am here, I am breathing, and there is no need to rattle mentally or emotionally, and I have a great responsibility to remain clam as a clam water pond as many living beings exist in the body which facilitate my own physical existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize in breathing I am grounding myself here, I stand, I remain here as a clam pond, in this I see/realize it is my responsibility to stop the mental, emotional rattle.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am alive, I am here, my body is here, my breath is here, and all the zillions of beings assisting me to exist as this physical body are here, therefore I see/realize my responsibility to remain here, breath by breath, living breathing here as a calm pond.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am living, I am alive, life is here, my physical body and this physical existence is here, so I see/realize it is my responsibility to breathe and remain here, moment by moment, not allowing myself to rattle mentally or emotionally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize I am here, I have the chance, I have the tools, I have the ability, to direct myself to breathe and be here, in and as the physical, as a calm pond.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize it is my responsibility and within my ability to not to rattle mentally or emotional, I remain here, I breathe, like a calm pond.

I like the analogy of a calm water pond giving by the Atlantians in the eqafe, they say there are billions of living beings in the body, living and going/doing their own thing, and so I have the responsibility to keep the pond clam so that the beings can be calm too, I mean my body is like a whole universe, like a water pond. I can imagine a calm pond, and I can see how important it is to keep the body as a clam pond, good for me, good for all in the body.

When and as I see myself rattling mentally or emotionally, I stop, I breathe, I direct myself to see myself, my body as a water pond, and I direct myself to remain as a calm pond. I mean, a rattling me is harmful to my body and to all that dwell in the body, the water universe, the calm pond.