Day 139 – ‘Breathe with Awareness’ to stop throwing shit out of the mouth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider the total and entire implications of my words, instead of just speak for the moment, just for the listener.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, within each sentence I speak, I am speaking not just to the listener but to the entire existence as self.  meaning, words are not just sugar candy for the listener, the words must speak common sense for all, though spoken directly at the listener.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, the words I speak are not momentary exchanges to make the listener feels good, or to manipulate him/her to take my side, instead I see/realize/understand, the words I speak are about common sense, and it must be life-supportive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak from my mind, meaning, speaking only to satisfy my mind and its emotional needs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak words just to get an emotional kick/high, within that I forgive me for speaking any manipulative bullshit to get a high.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, I must speak as if every being in existence is here listening to me attentively, within that I forgive me for not realizing, speaking in the absence of others don’t give me the permission to abuse them with my words.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, teasing, joking, gossiping, backstabbing, are all abuses done against life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, that patience is required, I see/realize that jumping to conclusions and making huge statements are not life supportive. Instead I direct myself to breathe, and calm down and speak within silence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak from emotions, feelings and heavily thinking mind, instead of been here, as silence, as breathe, as breathing, as physical and direct myself to speak in what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak from memories instead of breathing here, and speak as breath/physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, thinking generates so much mind energy which get thrown out as words that supports nobody, instead only end up hurting and abusing life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, breathing before speaking is my guard against abusing others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, the responsibility is with ME, I am the responsible one, to end abusive manner of speaking. I realize no word of abuse against anyone is acceptable, be they present at the conversation or not, be they alive or not, I realize I must consider the impact of my words upon them at all times.

I see/realize, if I were to meet anyone in this existence face-to-face, will I be able to stand by my words? Or will I hide in shame? Within this I forgive me for not realizing, I cannot speak any abusive words against anyone, as ALL are “listening” to what I am saying here now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, words spoken or thought about, have the same effect/affect, meaning thinking/speaking makes no difference. Abusive thought, abusive word, equal and one. within this I forgive me for not realizing, I must stop the thought to stop the word. Abuse begins with thought.

When and as I see myself spewing, throwing emotional shit out of my mouth, I stop, I breathe, I direct myself to move myself physically to stop the mind throwing out its shit. I realize, I am responsible as I am allowing this to happen, within this I support myself with breathing. I realize I cannot throw shit at people no matter what, I must consider the implication upon others. This one life to live.

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