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Day 82 – No more Psychonaut, I end my addictions to highs and rushes.

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be an energy addict.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feed my addiction to energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feed my energy addiction by participating in thoughts/feelings and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feed my energy addiction by consuming my human physical substance. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feed my mind’s craves for energy by eating up my body, by consuming my physical substance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to eat up my physical body, by giving into energy craves and rushes. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire energy highs and rushes in its variety of forms. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be an energy junkie, just like a drug junkie, who is constantly looking for highs and rushes, within the mental/mind realm. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to like/love/desire/seek/search energy highs and in that feel great and awesome while not realizing that I am slowly eating away my human physical body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never ask the question: what is the difference between my addiction to energy highs and a drug addict who is constantly looking for some pill-thrill? in this I forgive myself for not realizing I am One and Equal to drug addicts because I seek the very same mental energy rush/high, its just without taking any pill, instead I in-take/allow thoughts/emotions/feelings to give me that mental high/rush that I crave so much.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame and judge the so-called drug addicts and junkies, in the meantime, I have been an addict myself to energy and energy highs/rushes. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feed into my mind’s crave for highs and rushes and thereby consume my human physical body, and its substance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deplete my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consume my physical substance and thereby deplete my body towards death at which time all energy cravings end. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist/live just for giving my mind’s its desirable highs and rushes. in this I forgive myself for not realizing my entire life has been about one thing: satisfying my mind’s energy craves and rushes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the simplest anti-drug, anti-addiction, or anti-energy-addiction is the simplicity of breathing here as physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize energy in its origin is substance, therefore I see/realize/understand that the conflict between energy and substance for the survival of energy is useless, therefore I let go of all cravings and simply breathe here. Energy in its core form will not end, or die, as it is substance, therefore equal and one. 

I as energy, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to declare war against substance and be at war with substance. Not realizing I am as energy equal and one as substance, so in this I end all wars/conflicts/friction with substance and the physical body. 

I as energy, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not existing, fear dying, fear losing, fear been trapped, fear been cornered, fear been defeated, fear been isolated, fear not having my cravings met, fear not having substance to feed me, I see/realize/understand, I as energy, I have been at conflict/friction with substance out of ignorance, I end this, I stop conflict/friction. I am here and I breathe. 

When and as I see myself rushing for energy highs, or craving for energy highs, I stop, I breathe. I see/realize/understand me giving into energy highs is just like a drug addict giving into pills and powders, it will only consume my human physical body and its substance, so I stop, I breathe. I direct myself to stop all participation in my mind and remain here as breath/breathing.

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Day 81 – I as Mind’s Energy, I stop cannibalising my physical body.

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I as Energy, I forgive myself, that I have accepted and allowed myself to consume my human physical body, so I as energy, can continue to survive.

I as Energy, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not existing, and from this fear, constantly search for life source to feed me, to me keep alive. 

I as Energy, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying without sufficient feeding from the physical body.

I as Energy, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my human physical body and consume it for my own survival.

I as Energy, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to constantly consume the physical body so that I can be alive, and survive. 

I as Energy, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying without food which is the essence/substance of the physical body.

I as Energy, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself as separate from very substance and therefore be in constant friction and conflict with substance to feed myself with physical substance so that I can exist.

I as Energy, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be at war with substance of the physical body, and therefore fear the substance of the physical body.

I as Energy, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize I am one and equal as substance of the physical body. Then the question is, why am I, constantly consuming the substance from the physical? in this I as energy, I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to consume the physical and thereby deplete the physical body down to death.

I as Energy, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the mind must think/feel/ and be loaded with emotions so that I as energy can be alive and well.

I as Energy, I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear substance, not realizing I am of substance, my origin is substance, it just I am a different manifestation/form of substance, therefore I as energy, I forgive me for declaring war with substance so that I can survive.

I as Energy, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the mind as my savior and direct the mind to think/feel be loaded with emotions, as it would give me the very life that I desperately desire to survive as energy.

I as Energy, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying prematurely, and in this I forgive me for constantly consuming the physical to exist.

I as Energy, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am one and equal to substance, therefore I commit to stop all energy addictions that I play, that I create for my own survival as mind’s energy at the cost of depleting the physical body.

When and as I see myself playing energy games to feed me off the physical substance, I stop, I breathe. I direct myself to realize that I am one and equal to substance, to the physical. so in this I stop all frictions/conflicts and addictions to feed myself.

I breathe.

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