Day 56 – Making noise inside the head is Not Living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to start my mornings with backchat, giving into the automated thinking process that goes nowhere. The unceasing voice/chatter/noise in my head.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to start my day with nasty thoughts/voice in the head.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry in thoughts, in my morning backchats. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry, nasty and mean in my voice in the head and in this I forgive myself for starting my day with backchat. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to demonize others within my mind by thinking nasty shit about others in the voice in my head.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust the voice in my head with absolute certainty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust the voice in my head as if it is the real deal, the voice of truth and reality. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the voice in my head is just that, a voice, it has nothing to do with reality. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to engage myself in thinking/counter-thinking/debating/scolding/blaming/yelling/arguing all within my mind, as if a whole houseful of people inside my head all wanting to destroy and blame others for something. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the voice in my head  assumes so much power and direction in my life which I have given it and allowed it. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to replay memories and old shit just to fuel the voice in my head and in this I forgive myself for starting my day with backchat. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give reality to my thoughts hence the voices in my head. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider the voice in my head as the authority of life, not realizing the voice in my head is the voice of my mind wanting/seeking/desiring energy to fuel itself and its survival as ego at any cost. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to torture my body as life-energy is sucked up by the thinking process, by the voice in my head as it transform physical substance into mind energy. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by the voice in my head, and live my whole life directed by the voice in the head. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live like a zoombie just directed/pushed/pulled by the voice in my head, this unceasing thinking that happens in quantum time consuming my physical body thought by thought. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never consider a reality other than the reality of my voice in the head, as I have accepted the voice in my head as the ultimate reality and authority of life. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the voice in my head is mostly filled with anger, hate, judgment, lust and blame towards others. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others within my thoughts. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to turn humans into demons within my mind, within the voice in my head. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create hell on earth by listening to the voice in my head, by participating in the voice in my head. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the voice in my head has only one interest and that is self-interest, its own very survival. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am sharing this earth with billions of other beings and within my voice only my self-interest exist. Never considering another even for a moment. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the mind energy/the voice has been there within all humans for eons and all that ended at death. The voice in my head ends at death. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that here in this breath I have the choice to live as breath as life without participating within the voice in my head. The Hereness of life is available as I step out of my voice in the head. Yet I mistakenly believe that thinking as life/aliveness. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist my whole life within the voice in my head. And with death this voice ends, my body returns to dust, then all is over, a life lived in and by the voice in the head. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from this entire existence as I participate in the voice in my head. The voice in the head cuts me off from reality. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to cut me off from reality by living within the voice in my head. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide/sleep as I have allowed the voice in the head to be the author/director of my life. in this I forgive myself for giving up on myself and letting voices run my life. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that this voice in the head as the final and ultimate authority of my life, and it knows everything. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to entirely disregard the physical oneness and equality of all, as I live only by the voice in the head. The voice cuts off physical oneness and equality into separate pieces. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to entirely disregard life as I only live by the voice in my head. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to entirely disregard my physical beingness of me, my physical body, as I only live within and by the voice in the head. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to entirely disregard my breath and breathing. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to entirely disregard my physical beingness here as I live only within the voice in my head. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take the responsibility to stop participating in the voice in my head, and live here as breath. Because I see/realize that my voice in the head exist only if I participate in it. As I breathe there is no voice in the head. 

When and as I see that I am ‘lost in thought’ I STOP, I breathe, realizing very well that getting lost in the voice in my head is not LIVING. It just making mental noise. So I stop, I breathe, I direct myself to breathe, and I direct myself to get engage in physical activity.

I breathe.

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