I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek conflict with others, not realizing conflict is the primary way for my ego to refuel itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dig out for conflicts with others by speaking about things just activate conflict. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately seek out conflicts so that my emotional position gets a victory, in that never considering what is best for all those who are involved in the situation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be conflict prone, always ready for a conflict to take-over. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be on the guard all the time as if a war is about to breakout so always ready for a conflict. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am looking for trouble, seeking trouble, so conflicts con fuel my mind’s energy. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be always ready to jump into conflicts with others, instead of just breathing, just listening, just looking at the situation within common sense, and speaking/doing what is best for all, I allow myself to jump into conflicts. in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be arrogant and aggressive believing that relationships are an opportunity to be mean and nasty towards others, who are myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that mean nasty approach will not workout within any relationship. Meanness and nasty is just mind’s way to seek out conflicts with others for its own survival as energy. 

I as Energy of my Mind, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in fear of not existing and therefore constantly look out for conflicts with others to generate and enhance me as energy, in this sucking the life out of the physical body. 

I as Energy of my Mind, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not existing and out of this fear, constantly look out for conflicts with others to gain more energy so my survival as energy can continue. Not realizing at death I as energy wont exist. 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not realize this constant seeking for conflicts is the way for my mind’s energy to survive, and so I as energy of my mind, I forgive myself for desiring/wanting/needing conflicts.

I forgive that I have accepted and allowed myself to constantly look out for conflicts so that I as the energy of my mind can survive, in this I forgive myself for fearing and wanting of conflicts. 

To be continued….

When and as I see go into conflicts, I stop I breathe, I realize it is the fear of survival, fear of not existing of energy that is looking for conflicts, in realizing this, I stop, I breathe and not giving into conflicts.

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