Daily Archives: May 22, 2012

Day 37 – Fear of Others – part 2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to view 2 or more people talking together as a threat, because I believe they are talking about me, they are plotting against me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see 2 or more people talking together as a threat to me because I judge that as a plot against me, or them talking about me against me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear groups of 2 or more because I fear they might be talking about me, and plotting against me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear groups of 2 or more because I see them as a group against me and therefore fear them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as “1-to-1″ person and in that I forgive myself for defining myself as a not a group person. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear groups of 2 or more because I believe that they must not like or they must be feeling uncomfortable to include me in their midst. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to automatically believe that groups of 2 or more won’t like to include me because I see myself as a misfit for a group. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a not a group person and in that definition I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit myself. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a loaner and in that definition I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to isolate myself from group activities. 

I forgive myself to that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear groups because I fear been bullied within the group by its members. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see me, define me as a non-group member, who is a misfit for any social groups, or family groups, in that I forgive myself  for accepting and allowing myself to limit me, and isolate me by simply placing definitions upon myself. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place limitations upon myself by judging and fearing to communicate with others within the groups of 2 or more. Its all stems from fear to communicate and be intimate with others within a group setting. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear been intimate with people in a group settings because I believe group settings are not ideal for connecting with individuals and therefore not seek to communicate with persons individually 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear communications within a group settings because I believe that I am not invited to speak or I am not allowed to speak in a group setting. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to isolate myself within a group setting. Because I believe that my participation is not welcomed within a group, they just simply tolerate my presence. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am only tolerated within a group setting, because they actually don’t like me to be intimate and close to them, I am just given a chair, but not a place in their midst. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear and feel angry towards group members when they don’t include me within them as an equal and one member to others, while only giving me a chair but not an equal and one place just like all others within the group.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize equality and oneness with all others exist only at the level of life, as LIFE we are equal and one, but as social beings, there are differences, classes and segments, which only real if I give those divisions any attention. in this I forgive myself for not been HERE as breath of LIFE, instead I goto my mind and allow thoughts of divisions to dominate my physical reality HERE. as breath there exist NO divisions, as breathe I am here equal and one to ALL, in fact.

When and as I see myself giving into mind divisions in the form of social classes, family groups, blood bonds, familiarity bonds, professional bonds, cultural bonds, ethnic bonds, I STOP, I Breathe. I remain here. I realize as Breathe I am equal and one to all here.

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