Day 8 – “I Am Waiting” is an irresponsible Excuse.

Day 8: Journey to Life: I am waiting, what an excuse!!!

Today, I heard this statement “I am waiting” (for something to be finished so I can get on with my own task), and sure enough I experienced anger, frustration, and disappointment. Taking it back to myself, I see it clearly, that I have used that very same excuse “I am waiting” for this/that so many times just to avoid taking self-responsibility.

“I am waiting” for him to send me the document, “I am waiting” for summer to arrive, “I am waiting” for a next weekend, “I am waiting” for my next vacation, “I am waiting” for my next birth, “I am waiting” for God. So on and on, a long list of “I am waiting” excuses, not realizing they just waste away my life in just waiting (till death of course then no more waiting/weighting).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak the words “I am waiting” for this or that, not realizing that’s a lame excuse. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak the words “I am waiting” so many times just to avoid taking self-responsibility to get the job done. Instead use that phase to avoid doing what is needed here. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak the words “I am waiting” to hide from taking self-responsibility. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak the words “I am waiting” to avoid facing my manifested consequences believing if “I just wait”, I can avoid facing them. Not realizing the more “I wait”, the more heavier the consequences will be and become. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that “I am waiting” is an excuse similar to saying “I am waiting” to die. I mean, the question is how long are you going to just “wait”, till death? till next life?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “wait” so that death can arrive while “I wait”, in that waste my entire life just “waiting” for others to move.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “wait” for God to solve this world’s problems. Basically “I am waiting” for God to act first. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize in speaking the words “I am waiting”, I am in fact allowing the abuses to continue. Because I am waiting for someone/God/masters/Gurus/teachers/others to fix them for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “wait” for so long. Instead of looking at the practical situation here, and asking the question “What can I do now”? and then moving myself to physical do them, I justify my irresponsibility by saying “I am waiting” for this or for that, or for death, or for God, so I can move my Butt eventually. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get frustrated within me today when I heard the words “I am waiting” because that is exactly what I have been doing all my life, “I am waiting” and wasting away without any actual self-directed movements. 

No more “I am waiting”. Instead I ask, “What can I do”? and then move myself within practical common sense to get the job done. 

So when and as I see myself giving excuses like “I am waiting” I stop, I breathe. Because I realize “I am waiting” could mean “I am waiting for death” or “I am waiting” for my next life to move my ass, and in that I will have wasted my life.

So, when and as I see myself giving that “I am waiting” excuse, I stop, and I breathe, and I ask the question “what can I do” and then move myself to actually do them.

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