Day 1. Writing to birth myself as Life through the physical.
I heard bernand’s video today about nothingness, in which he request people to write daily. Day 1, Day 2, etc etc, each day taking on some point and doing self forgiveness on it. Of course, writing self-corrective/committing statements to actually physically stand as change. This must be done daily, everyday for 7 years. Wow, can you imagine daily writing for 7 years. well step by step, drop by drop changing the patterns of self, physically.
Let me take a simple point I saw today, which will assist me to look at. Taking things personally.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take things personally.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take anything another says as a direct insult to me, and in that I have allowed myself to take things personally.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take any question, or any comment, or any gesture by another “personally” and in that I have allowed myself to get hurt.
This is a very simple problem, I mean, why do I think others are trying to hurt me, or insult me? I realize how I see the moment, is how I realize the moment. If anyone ask me a question, it just a question, a comment, or a gesture, it is what it is. But if I look at it as an insult or hurt point, then, yes, I have “taken things personally”.
So I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take things personally. instead of breathing and not taking inside me, anything what others say or do, I have allowed them to get in and be hurtful. I mean, only if I allow anything to get in, can it hurt me.
So when and as I see myself “taking things personally”, I stop it, I breathe I support myself with breathing. I realize how I experience myself within me is my direct responsibility. I can suffer inside me or, I can just breathe and remain here as physical. its upto me.
This moment is here as life. Only this moment, I need to take care. Taking things personally means I continue with time and allow suffering to happen. So I stop, I breathe, I engage myself in the physical Here-ness, doing something physical.
To take things personally, I need a story in the head, I need the backchat, the chatting back of the mind, to continue. So I support me with breathing here.
Till here no further, I will no longer allow and accept myself to take things personally. Instead I breathe, I let go, I remain here.
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